Basic Instinct

Everything happens for a reason.

I've always believed my own intuitive feelings taught me the value in every experience. Life is full of coulda, woulda, shoulda moments and we tend to theorize about all the what if's of major past decisions, which has got me thinking...does everything really happen within reason? The choices I have made based on my feelings and instincts have proved true for every significant moment of personal growth in my life (I can only imagine the future will be similarly enlightening.)

Trusting myself and my reasoning has given me the courage to continually seek out opportunities and remain open-minded to the ones that present themselves to me. Rational yet idealistic, my gut has sometimes taken me in the other direction, aka being illogical even though I know what I should be doing. I have stayed in relationships (both friendship and love) surpassing the expiration date. Like I mentioned in my first post, we have expectations of people, especially our loved ones. Whether I was hoping these relationships would get better, worse, or change...there was a reason I stayed. 

Learning more and more about myself is a perpetual study. I constantly gain new perspectives, and in time I am more and more sure that I have made the right decisions (this is all in regards to the bigger picture: my life.) The support I get from friends close to me made me realize who was important in my life. It also made me realize who definitely wasn't. Sometimes seeing the best in people doesn't allow you to see the truth (I am ALWAYS seeking the good within whatever relationship I'm in), which is why I now have no regrets of keeping away from those who are negative energy in my opinion, and surrounding myself with positive people as much as possible.

"Everyone you come across - be they heart-liftingly good or sour of spirit, is your teacher in some way. How are you growing from the experience of knowing them? How are they teaching you to become a better person?"

My unbudging mind combined with a surprisingly still-naive heart and an unforgettable memory (I have an amazing memory, seriously.) makes for a tortuous existence at times. In short, this means I have trouble letting go of the past, the wonderful and the treacherous. I know learning to let go of what is no longer relevant is a skill I should acquire for my own happiness, but for now trusting that basic instinct to feel whatever it is I need to feel allows for a graceful recovery, and knowing that there's growth and maturity to be found definitely helps.

Trust in something. Whether it's yourself, friends, family, even as much as destiny....because it's a faith in knowing that everything does happen for a reason.